It was a fine Monday afternoon when he suddenly asked me to meet him in his work lab for a great sex since no one was around and it was a public holiday. He was in his Dental Lab at PPUM, One of the hospitals here in Malaysia. Since its pretty near from my workplace, i decided to visit him on my lunch hour. It was my first time to enter the PPUM area and i did not expect that it was huge inside. The moment i got there, he was already in the entrance waiting with his cute smile. He was so charming with his beautiful almost perfect teeth and you will really think without a doubt that he is a dentist.
He is a typical malay with a nice brown skin that is so perfect with his manly face. He looked cool with his jeans with his bulge already visible. He took me to the fire exit going to the elevator up to the 6th floor. He guide me to his lab and to my surprise, its full of mechanical appliance that i have never seen before. It was a bit scary and i was thinking of the movie “saw”. Hahahaha
And he hold my hand and suddenly pushed me to the wall. I looked at him and kissed him with so much lust. I can feel his soft lips with mine. His tongue and hid caress unbuttoning my Pants and my shirt.
I knell down in front of him, pulling his pants down until his blue underwear remained. It was slow and sensual while i am kissing the head of his penis on his underwear. I can feel it becomes bigger, i cant even wait to put it inside my mouth. Slowly pulling down his underwear until the whole penis is right in front of my face. His cut dick is now inside my mouth and i can hear his loud moan while his grabbing my hear tightly and pushing my head deeper to his cock. It wax slow at first and becomes faster and faster until he said stop.
I took all my clothes and we were both naked inside the lab. He was kissing my nipples and i can feel his tongue around it. He was so good that i was moaning so loudly looking through the window with too much pleasure. He was seating on the high stool which im sucking his cock. I can still hear his moan while im writing this. Its still on my ears lingering.
I took my condom in my wallet and i was on the stool, spreading my legs towards him, waiting for him to go inside me. There he was, fucking me on the stool my legs up. Kissing me…. …
Theres this guy whom i met for few weeks now. He is always sending me some dirrty message like he wants to have sex all the time, i kinda enjoy it because its a turn on for me, a guy who can make u sexually arroused just my sending u dirrty messages.
Then we meet for good blow job and that was few weeks ago, i can still remember how hes body shaking while he cum inside my my mouth. He is a nice guy, i like him and hes an average chinese that makes me remember my ex.After that, i thought that this is also one of the moments when you can just touch and go but surprisingly, he messaged me right after we finished blow jobbing.
Then yesterday, he asked if i can go with him in a sauna. I coundnt really say no because its theres a feeling thats bothering me that time.
I think anyone can relate this, like you just had a sex but you are not really satisfied and all you gonna do is to find a sexual encounter again until you will feel an authentic satisfaction and then you gonna stop for few days, and then go back again.
I came with an idea that this is how a sexual cycle of a gay is or i am just manifesting a symptoms of a sexual maniac.
I feel really bad if someone is taking drugs right in front of my eyes and to know that they are people whom you really care and love the most. I saw how their behavior will change everytime theyre on the spirit of drugs. He complain sometimes if where are all his money go in spite of all the hardwork hes been doing from his job. I’m just scared that the addiction will go worst and he be left with nothing and i dont want that to happened to all the people i love. I knew a lot of people affected by this drug addiction and i know how hard and sad it is to them. I dont want to reach the point that all the the people he love will get affected. His relationship with his family, to his friends and his relationship with me. Thats the last thing i want to happen.
I knew people selling all their branded things just to get drugs. They even sell liquors from their parents mini bar just to buy drugs. I already exhausted telling all these but they never listened.”im not a drug addict, im just a drug user”, this is the normal response from them.
I used to tell myself before
“Im ok to be gay, than being a drug addict”
Its going to be a cold night for me and Its 2:23 am here in kuala lumpur.Im still awake and feeling emotionally lonely and sad. Im thinking about the people whom i really love the most, and thinking about the guys whom i emotionally attached with.Its really hard if your expecting for something to happen thats far from the reality.I can actually leave anytime but i chose to stay because im still hoping and expecting. I dont really know how much pain would i get if il just leave but one thing for sure…its unbearable
I love him without asking anything in return, but im already tired and im losing my patience.I told myself to give up many times but im still here, still waiting.
I dont know how long would it be but all these lies hurt me so much..
Its actually raining outside while im writing this, seems like the sky is crying with me.
Donuts are one of the best things that i really enjoy aside from sex of course. It gives me a feeling of joy and satisfaction to every bite of it. I have this crazy sex fantasy that im gonna cover my boyfriend full of donuts and im gonna eat them one by one until one donut will remain into his penis. Inserting a hole of donut into his thing and start to lick every sugar on it. I really like sweets especially with a bit of sex into it..
Donuts is a gay thing…and yes..im addicted to donuts